has it been that long?

i can't believe that it's july 2007 and i haven't posted since october. i guess a lot of silence either means extreme good or extreme bad. it's done the pendulum swing, for sure. both good and bad stuff has happened.

bottom line? we're still hanging in there. or should i say i am. having a hard night right now. even though i've realized i have to be comfortable in my own skin and own existence and am the only one that can own ME, i still want to run away!! no, i'm not kidding.

lots of talk lately about moving. i'm thinking denver area. but he's miserable in his job and it's time for him to move on. so i'm pushing for out of state, or out of area at least. i know he's still in contact with her, i just don't know exactly to what extent and for what purpose. i figure that a great mileage distance involving an airline trip will squash more of this.

besides, what kind of psycho-bitch does it take to stay involved with a married man?? for cryin' out loud! oh yeah, here's the kicker... guess what her mother does for a living? no, seriously, guess... see the answer later. i really want you to give a good guess.

so don't run the whole question about what kind of a psycho-married-asshole it takes to stay involved with another woman. i've already asked that. more on another post.

so otherwise life is honkey dorey. lots of activities with the family. i started another business and he's very encouraging and supportive and helpful. lots of future plans, which had been missing prior to this past year. and occasional (we're working on this area) declarations that he wants to go do something with his wife.

you know what? i've won.

marriage and family therapist.

enjoy that giggle.