wtf

can't win... hell, i don't even think i'm talented enough to lose. at least not completely.

have you ever asked for forgiveness from someone? no, i don't mean just saying "i'm sorry" but actually saying "will you forgive me?" there is quite a difference. i think they both go hand-in-hand. you say the first to acknowledge your wrongdoing, you say the second to put your "release" into the hands of the other person. whether or not they forgive you is, well, up to them.

what do i get back? "it's not all about you." great. thanks. my purpose for asking for forgiveness and saying that i was sorry was not about me. it actually was about him. it truly was to acknowledge that i did something to hurt him and to show remorse, do penance, etc. it wasn't about me.

so off he goes to work. he has time to think about it. me and my big damn mouth. geez oh. and people wonder why i stop fighting. i stop fighting because when i let my mouth say what my mind is thinking, it gets me into more trouble. i just can't win.

you shoulda seen my dreams last night. oh boy. actually, you shouldn't have. i'm going to wipe those from all memory. ugh-leee.