has it been that long?

i can't believe it's been so long since i've made a post here. i guess things have been going well... lol.

actually they have. we have our moments. oh boy, do we have our moments. but overall, things are better. i daresay they are coming back to normal.

i quit my job last week. been working parttime as a bartender. the owner decided to be a jerk. so i quit. i mean when it's 15 minutes into your shift and you already decided it's done, it's gotta be serious, right? i was in the bathroom talking to my husband on the cell phone so early in my shift warning him... "if i come home tonight unemployed, don't be fucking surprised!" he was totally cool with it. six months ago he would have freaked out.

we are making plans to do trips and nice things for our home and possibly even lasik for our eyes. everything points towards the future together. hell, we've been talking about getting a cat. for cryin' out loud. can you believe it??

so, i hope that this continues. i will make an effort to get online to report the good things and not have this only be my place for freaking out. wouldn't that be nice? unfortunately, i am a writer during the bad times. it's my release and my outlet.

oh yeah, i'm going off my brain meds. halved my dose for the last 14 days. going to try today without them. wish me luck! i'm ready to be in control of my head.